Slept in late today, I was doing a lot of dreaming and just didn’t want to get up. One dream that I had, I want (and maybe need) to talk about.
I’ve had this dream quite often and it always leaves me feeling haunted. The dream goes something like this; Marcia (my deceased wife) has had an accident (neverspecified what kind) and as a result has suffered memory impairment. The scenario changes from dream to dream but her condition always remains the same and try as I may, she does not seem to love or want me anymore. The dream always involves me trying to bring back our relationship to where it once was, and always falling short, always failing. Why can’t I win her back? Why can’t it be the way it was?
Marcia was, is, and always will be the center of my life so walking away in the dream just isn’t an option, and to not have her love or be with me anymore leaves me when I wake from the dream, so sad, so empty.
Perhaps it’s guilt that fuels this recurring dream. Early in our relationship I disappeared for three months (that’s another story) and I think that hurt her deeply. Thank god she forgave me and took me back (divine intervention?). Through the course of our relationship (marriage), I was the spoiled, immature, irresponsible one that I know caused her stress and anxiety and god forbid, unhappiness. I never strayed, never lied (well, I did once, but I confessed to her before I could even finish the lie). As I said (and can’t say enough), she always has been the center of my life, and yet at times, I acted anything but that way.
Maybe it’s because I hurt her (emotionally) that conjures up this quilt? I never did it on purpose but nevertheless I did. Maybe it’s because she gave me life, and I gave her grief. Maybe because I’m where I’m at today because of her, and she’s where she’s at, that brings me this quilt?
There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of her. My love for her and my commitment to her is as strong today as ever, There never was, and there never will be anyone else like her (at least for me).
I’m so sorry for the hurt I caused, I’m so sorry that I can’t tell her how bad I feel, maybe that’s where the quilt comes from?
I just hope that on that day, she’ll give me another chance to tell her.
Woke up early to get to the Visitor Center by 8:45 am and hop on the boat for a three hour cruise on the lake. Waking up and looking out at the cloudy, gloomy sky, I heard that little voice in my head talking to me loudly saying, It’s OK, go back to sleep, you can just blow this off. To my credit, I didn’t listen. I got up, dressed (warmly) and was underway. In addition to the overcast sky, it was only 54 degrees out. I wasn’t sure how this was going to turn out.
Driving to the Visitor Center I was half hoping that the cruise would be cancelled but no, at 9;00 am we boarded the pontoon boat (two others plus myself) and off we went to see the sights of Reelfoot Lake.
It was gloomy and borderline cold but still, it turned out to be a positive experience and in the end, I’m glad I didn’t listen to that little voice.
Reelfoot lake is the only large natural lake in Tennessee. It covers 15,000 acres at an average depth of 5.5′. At it’s deepest, the lake is only 18′ feet. It was formed after a number of earthquakes (over 2000) in the region between 1811 & 1812.
The lake is a hot spot for fisherman. Even on this gloomy, overcast day there were people out in their boats.
After getting off the lake I thought about stopping somewhere to have lunch. Being it was Mother’s Day that Idea was quickly squashed, every place I went had people waiting to get seated. I headed back to the trailer and had some hot dogs and chips. Spent the rest of the day hanging out at the campsite.
Even with it being cold, gloomy, and in the afternoon a little rainy, it was a good day. I got to see a couple of Osprey and Eagles.
Watched last evening as the campground filled up with trailers, RV’s, and boats. kind of surprised considering the weather this weekend doesn’t sound like it’s going to be very nice. In fact, waking up this morning it was damp, cold, and raining (not heavy just steady).
By the looks of it, this is a big time lake for fishing, and with all the resorts in the area, a super popular spot in the summer.
Headed into Dyersburg, TN, to get a haircut. Dyersburg is about twenty-five south of Tiptonville. Leaving Tiptonville, the area is flat and fields, as you get closer to Dyersburg, the landscape changes and the terrain gets hillier and more tree covered.
After getting my haircut, I headed into downtown to see and get a feel of what the city was at one time. Today, there’s a freeway running along the edge of town and that’s where all the new development is going on. As I’ve said on a number of posts, with this development what were seeing is late 20th century- 21st century America modern. A style and architecture which is culturally sterile and only serves to further the homogenization of the country. I don’t like it!
A few other buildings noticed in my meandering around town.
Finally, some of the housing stock in the old part of the city.
It was neat being able to get a glimpse of the past in Dyersburg, now it’s back to reality. Stopped at Walmart and Chick-Fil-A, and then back to the campground. Who knew that getting a haircut could be so much fun.
The big accomplishment today was to go into Union City, TN and have maintenance done on the truck. Just a oil/filter change and tire rotation, plus a quick check over. I think it’s important to keep up maintenance on the vehicle contrary to what some may think. My dad used to say if it isn’t broke, leave it alone. You can do it that way but don’t be surprised when something suddenly goes wrong and pow, big $$$ to repair. Wow, I’ve put over 16,500 (trouble free) miles on the truck so far this trip and it’s not over yet (fingers crossed).
The ride into Union City took about forty minutes from the campground. Going there I took the long way which involved taking a lot of twisting and winding roads.
After getting the truck serviced, I headed back towards the campground. I detoured a bit and went into and around Tiptonville. I wanted to see what the Mississippi was looking like since I heard there has been some flooding.
Tiptonville sadly has become like so many small towns, it’s best days seem to be behind them. Still if you look, you can see what it once was, and I can find a degree of satisfaction in that.
Probably the biggest thing about Tiptonville is that it’s the boyhood home of Carl Perkins. Perkins was an early rock-n-roller, most famous for the song ‘Blue Suede Shoes.’
The area outside Tiptonville is flat and farmland. It’s protected from the river by a levee that seems to be working fairly well.
After my drive around the area, headed back to the campground. Along the way, I stopped at the Park Visitor Center and signed up for a three hour lake cruise for Sunday 5/12/19. The weather promises to be cool and cloudy (Yea), but I’m hopeful it will still be an enjoyable time. I guess it’s what you make of it (hope I don’t have to keep repeating that all day on the cruise). Once back at the site, spent the rest of the day just hanging out.
It rained pretty much all last night and into the morning. Thankfully there weren’t any severe storms, so outside of a soaked campground, things appear OK and YES!!! no leaks noticed in the trailer (always a good thing)
When I first stepped out of the trailer this morning I saw that someone (or something) had left me a house warming gift.
The other campers around seem pretty friendly, and I even spent a little time interacting with them while we were helping a camper park his big 5th wheel into a rather tight site. After a few minutes of conversing I’d had enough (not in a bad way). Try as I may, I’m just not much of a people person. A couple of things I did find out in talking with the folks which I thought interesting, some of the cypress trees in the area are over 200 years old, and a couple saw two otters down by the lake. I’ll have to check that sighting out.
About all I accomplished yesterday other than working on the blog (it’s so easy to get behind) was to go try some BBQ at a place just down the road. They didn’t have any brisket (beef) so I got a half rack of ribs. It was OK, but nothing to write home about. One thing that I finally decided on, I’m just am not a pork eater (think we’ve heard that before).
Noticing a lot of robins around the campground. I love watching them go around looking for and pulling worms out of the ground when they find one. I never tire of watching them.
Looks like a change in the weather is coming. The temperature is going to drop and the sky’s will remain cloudy and gloomy.
Even with the so-so weather, I’m enjoying the place.
Woke up this morning before the alarm went off and while still laying in bed, I was looking out through the screen door. It was warm last night so I kept only the screen door shut, As I was looking out, the male cardinal landed on a branch where I could see him and there he stayed for a short time singing away. it was almost like he was saying goodbye, and letting me know that he was looking out for me. It reminded me of the first day when the female cardinal came by and did the same thing. I don’t think I could have had a better send-off. Of course by the time I got set up to get a photo, off he went. Oh well, I’ll just have to keep getting that special photo of a cardinal on my list of things to do.
Another five hour day on the road so it was up early (8:00 am). Getting the trailer ready to travel went smooth, it was really convenient that the camp site had a sewer connection, so dumping the black and grey tanks was a snap. One thing I noticed while staying in Alabama State Parks, they have pretty good amenities and overall, their parks are kept up quite well. Once packed up and ready to go, it was onward and upward to the next destination, Reelfoot Lake State Park just outside Tiptonville, TN.
The drive was pretty uneventful (no flat tires or breakdowns) which I’m always thankful for. The roads started out by being a series of relatively narrow, winding, and early on, up and down (pretty hilly) roads where I averaged about 45-50 mph. Once into Tennessee, the roads began to become straighter and flatter and there were more four-lane expressways (one step below freeway level). The drive was quite a bit easier with speeds of 60-65 mph. it worked out pretty good, even though I really enjoy the narrow, slow going roads, they can and do get tiring to drive after a while, so it was a nice relief to just set the cruise and go.
A couple of highlights on the drive was going through the town of Savannah, TN. It was in this area that the Civil War battle of Shiloh was fought. Not far from Savannah, I went through the town of Adamsville, which is the home of Bufford Pusser, the sheriff depicted in the ‘Walking Tall’ movies. I could have stopped and gotten some photos but towing the trailer for me is cumbersome to maneuver around (of course seeing people do it with 5th wheel trailers, Class A motor-homes, etc, make this somewhat of a lame excuse). The biggest reason for not stopping was time, so I saw what I could and moved on.
The final twenty five miles of the trip was an adventure . the iPad map app had me going down some pretty sketchy roads. They were uber narrow without lines and seemed to be little more than farm roads, although they were paved (and straight). In fact, I spend a couple miles going down one of them behind a big (really big) tractor, the kind used to spray the fields. The area was composed largely of farm fields dotted with blocks of trees, something that’s been a while since I’ve seen. It was neat to see farmers in their tractors working a number of the fields.
I did come across a sight that had me do a double take while driving down one of those way back roads. I came by a bunch of donkeys in a pasture, I thought that was cool in its own right but then there it was, in among all the donkeys was a zebra. Thinking back, I probably should have gotten a photo so I don’t get a lot of; yeah, sure you saw a zebra in Tennessee.
Finding the campground turned out to be a bit of an effort. The park is broken up into a number of areas around the lake. There’s a couple of day use areas, a boat ramp area, and a museum, in addition to the campground. After driving up and down the road for awhile, I finally found the campground.
Checked in and found out that I was at the South Campground and my reservation was for the North Campground. I had known this when I made the reservation but I thought that both areas were located in the same general vicinity. Man was I wrong, it seemed the North Campground was about 15 miles away, so after getting instructions on how to get there, off I went.
The drive to the North Campground took me away from the lake and for the most part, civilization in general, man I was out in the sticks. About the only sign of civilization was a large prison complex about a quarter mile off the road. Along the way I saw a sign informing me of a wildlife refuge which was located in Kentucky was fifteen miles down the road, I didn’t know I was that close to the border. I finally found the place and while I was OK with it even with it being so isolated, it did not have any Verizon service (hardcore camper I ain’t), I couldn’t even make a phone call. At this point, I guess I’ve been spoiled by the niceties which included Verizon service and a somewhat close proximity to shopping, etc. Since I had no cell service, I just headed back to the South Campground, explained my concerns, and was able to get a campsite within the grounds. I was relieved and very thankful.
Setup the trailer and I was home for the next week. The site is level and water/power hookup seem good. The site has a nice view of the lake and yes, decent Verizon service. OTA TV reception was limited to three channels but I do have Amazon Prime and Netflix (I watched Cool Hand Luke last night).
The weather looks to be rainy and possibly stormy for the next couple of days and the temperature is set to drop. That wont be all bad since today was almost ninety degrees and humid.
I made it to the destination and got settled in, all is right in my world for tonight. I’m thankful.
Last full day in the Tennessee Valley and Alabama, then it’s off to the next destination in the journey. The time has gone by fast. Seems like I just got settled in and now it’s time to hook up and head out. Enjoyed being able to spend another nice sunny day by the river, even with the continued high humidity. I don’t like feeling clammy (like that word).
I did get up early which is a good thing, but then I started watching TV again and those darn Court TV shows (Peoples Court, Judge Mathis, etc) and don’t forget ‘Hazel’ (man I’m pathetic), they just suck me in and nothing else gets accomplished. I also got distracted by a number of Facebook posts and ended up spending more time than maybe I should’ve responding back and forth to them. By the time I finished, the afternoon had pretty much slipped by.
In communicating with people, It amazes me how some think. Now I understand that everyone has a right to their opinion and generally, I respect that, but sometimes they go beyond reasonable and being the opinionated person I am, I can’t just let it go. I consider myself as someone who’s progressive, yes you can call me a liberal, although not a bleeding heart, snowflake kind of liberal. I try to see both sides of a story before reaching a conclusion. I’m not perfect and certainly not above learning and/or seeing the other sides thinking. But when their positions are so closed minded, so extreme, ARGH……….
I did take a quick trip into town to pick up some hot-dog buns and chips (fine dining). On the way back into the campsite, came across a number of deer, they’re prevalent inside the park and their faces are just so darn cute. Like the cardinal, they won’t stand still long enough for me to get a decent photo of them.
Getting ready to leave, my impressions of the area have been mixed. I love the water and the mature trees of the park and while the area still has a southern charm, it’s a little different. The people don’t seem quite as cordial and can come across somewhat rough in their personality’s. I’m seeing where the term ‘Redneck’ comes from, although that isn’t meant to indict the entire area. In all fairness, I haven’t spent as much time meandering around the area as I could have and maybe should have. I’m feeling a bit guilty about that.
Maybe another day I’ll be back, and when I do, I’ll give the area the once over it deserves.